I’ve always dreamt on finding my own happy place – my Wonderland.
Yes, my English name ( I am from Seoul, South Korea and I don’t know anything about K-pop, so don’t ask!) is Alice, so maybe if I may be a bit dramatic, it’s destined.
Did I find it?
My answer is no, unfortunately. And as a full-grown up adult (which means I am the person who knows the world is not full of wonders sometimes….ugly, shit things happen so many times.), now I even have a doubt whether I can find it or not.
However, I dare to say… I won’t give it up(Yayi!).
…. Well, let me correct it. It was too cheerful. Actually it’s more like I still have a feeling that I can find my own ‘Wonderland’.
It’s like finding Neverland.
Maybe such place never exists. People(other than me) just live forward, finding 1% moment happy (and the rest of 99% moments are dull or gloomy….?). Maybe I am not fully grownup adult, so I am being like a child now, saying like ‘Mom, I will find my own happy wonderland!’ with sparkling eyes. *_* (see?)
Until then, I am in Berlin, far way from South Korea.
Let’s say at least I’ve taken one big step further, so I believe it has brought me closer to somewhere like ‘Never…’, no, Wonderland.
(Happy smile 😀 You think I’ve got closer a bit?)